Monday, October 22, 2018

Running with purpose...and Trader Joe's

WTF Baltimore.  Who the hell would've thought that a city by the bay would be so freaking hilly.  Every time I went up a hill, there was another freaking hill! Holy cannoli.  
So, here's the basics of the race.  This year I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to find an opportunity to raise money for one of my favorite charities, Back on My Feet.  What is BOMF you ask? Here's the deal, it is a charity organization that is based in major cities around the country, including Philadelphia and Baltimore.  BOMF reps go into homeless shelters or transitional living facilities and recruit individuals that want to participate in a running program.  BOMF develops personal relationships with each person and helps them not only complete a running program, but also helps to create an individualized road map for financial independence.  Each member attends financial literacy classes and job skills training provided through partnerships with our corporate partners. Members can earn financial assistance to remove barriers to employment and housing such as work supplies, transportation and security deposits. Members who achieve employment and housing become Alumni Members. Within six months of becoming a Back on My Feet Alumnus, 90% of members maintain their employment, 60% receive a wage increase and 20% achieve a promotion. Many of the participants are folks that are experiencing homelessness due to unfortunate circumstances and really do want to change- running provides them with the confidence to pursue success. Pretty awesome.  

So, that was the why part of my race- here's the how.  For quite a few months I have been dealing with implementing a new job schedule, kid activities, and so much going on with life in general, running has been an uphill battle. My initial plan to run the full marathon had to go on hold for the moment, so I dropped back to the half.  It was a gorgeous fall day to drive down to Bmore, and with a 9:45 start, there was plenty of time to park and saunter over to our staging area.  Luckily, the Raven's stadium parking was totally free to runners and only about 3/4 of a mile walk to the star area of the race.  Baltimore (much like any other city- don't hate) can be intimidating- especially when you are on a time crunch.  Kudos for that.

The race started much like any other.  Me wiggling my way to the front of the starting area, barely paying attention to race announcements, fiddling with my watch, and off goes the cannon. Immediately, there's a four or five person pile up.  Luckily, I got out of that one unscathed.  Miles started clicking away.  I was running with some dude and we were chatting a bit.  'Don't go out too hard.' he said.  Yeah.  Ok.  Sure.  6 miles in and I totally saw what he meant.  Hills upon hills with a side of incline.  At 45 minutes, I knew I could no longer keep beating myself up for not making goal finishing time, so I started doing 2:30/2:30 on/off (for nonrunners, this means 2:30 fast, and 2:30 recovery) but that really didn't even happen because of course I timed it as the 'on' part was always uphill and the 'recovery' was on a blistering downhill.  Everything went out the window around 8 miles and it was just a push to the finish.  At 12 miles, I started having a back spasm, but kept up all the way to the finish, and of course then immediately disappeared.  Awesome.

I wandered aimlessly for a while before returning to our tent to change. I threw on some dry clothing and headed out to the after party.  There was beer! And wine! And food! Annnnddd….the results table.  For whatever reason I was a hot emotional mess, and when I checked my results and found out I placed 3rd in my age group and finished around 26th female overall I literally cried a little.  To finish 26 out of over 4000 with a race that more or less sucked and was pure grit was pretty awesome.  At the very least, it finally gave me the confidence boost that I sooooo needed.  The last few months have sucked, but I am starting to feel like myself again, and it was exactly what I was literally chasing.  

And then I stopped at Trader Joe's on the way home.  It was awesome.  

Wednesday, October 10, 2018

5ks are not my bag.

How is it humanly possible that a girl who used to cry when assigned to anything over the 800 meter run in track meets now can't finish a 5k without looking like death was about to warm over? Well, yes, friends it is possible.
Over the summer and fall I have competed in 2 5 mile races (one sucked, one not so much) and 3 5ks.  Take a wild guess which sucked wayyyy more? Ding ding.  You got it.  F 5ks.  Here are the things I have recently learned.
Getting old sucks.  At 36 I am definitely in prime shape, but no longer successful long sprint shape.  Anymore a 5k is simply 20 minutes of life just sucking.  For the life of me, I can't even break 20 minutes anymore, which used to be a walk in the park.  While it's disappointing, it has taught me that there are much more important things than winning. Accepting that in my ripe old age, it's time to focus on some different stuff.
I have heard the frustration of many of my mom friends that they simply don't have time to train, I must be so lucky to fit long training into my schedule, etc.  and here's the deal...there's no secret.  While I refuse to wake up at the ass crack of zero-dark-thirty to shove in a miserable (and frankly dangerous) long run, I will head out at 2 pm and squish in some miles.  I will also spend lots of quality time in my basement on the treadmill, binging a random ultra-violent Netflix show (currently, season 10 of the Sopranos) with closed captioning on, while taking 15 minute breaks to make sure my children are not strangling one another.
I see some other runners on social media posting about their amazing last race and how they 'get' to run miles and miles outdoors while their kids are in school, and OF COURSE I am jealous.  It sucks to know that the 'if onlys...' start to creep in.  If only I could get up earlier...if only I was more dedicated....if only my job was different....but guess what.  I am working with what I got.  Maybe that means one race every 6 months or missing out on something I want to do, it is what it is and I have to be happy that I have a supportive family, a great network of running friends, and the ability to put one foot in front of the other.  Maybe I am not in as good of shape as others, maybe I am dying to travel across the country to race, but at this point, none of that matters.
So, 5k PRs might be a thing of the past, or maybe not.  No matter what happens, I will always be thankful I can do what I love to do.  And that's run.

And eat.  Let's not forget about that.  ITS PUMPKIN SPICE SEASON.  Yes, I am that basic.
Cheers friends! Happy Running